making no sense

2009-11-21T17:44:00.001+08:00

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

~*~

2008-12-30T19:29:00.003+08:00

akin to a bottled memory
Surrendered
like to the Pontic sea
only then would i have been;

Free

2008-10-21T08:49:00.001+08:00

Hero - Billy Gilman

There's a flower
In the smallest garden
Reaching for the light
There's a candle
In the darkest corner
Conquering the night

There is amazing strength
And a willing hand
There are victories
That you've never planned
There's a hero
In everybody's heart

There's a fire
Inside of everybody
Burning clear and bright
There's a power
In the faintest heartbeat
That cannot be denied

Go on and trust yourself
You can ride the wind
Your gonna take your dreams
Where they've never been
There's a hero
In everybody's heart
Go on and trust yourself
You can ride the wind
Your gonna take your dreams
Where they've never been
There's a hero
In everybody's heart

2008-06-22T13:42:00.003+08:00

how true this is!
i'm sure renee and shirley would also be able to relate to this

"i miss the times when we shopped at forever 21, took stupid pictures with hats and dreamt abt the dress we would never get."

don't we all miss those carefree blissful times?

2008-06-18T09:24:00.002+08:00

my june hols/study break have been like this:

first week was spent zombie-like - waking up at 4 in the mrng and slping at 1 in the mrng.
second week was spent catching up on lost slp, mourning over horribly screwed up complexion due to severe lack of slp
third week was spent gg out almost everyday, mtg up w different grps of ppl. afterall, it's the hols, how can don't go out w friends?
and now, at the fourth week, i've finally started serious studying - 50% of procrastination, 30% of trying to find lost notes and what not, 20% of really mugging

haha see, my mid years is so screwed! and to make things worse, mummy's in malaysia spending time w my grandad and dad's on some sch trip at indonesia. haha, w no peidu mama to nag at me to study, cmi la!

ok anyway, pre-u sem was uber fun. did i mention we were stuffed w food like pigs abt to be slaughtered? SG 16 WHOAH! they were a really fun group to have. haha crazy bunch of ppl. we did a billy-bomber dance around some coffee table whilst singing home (to sound more patriotic and pro-pap so to speak) when there was this formal dialogue thing gg on at the audi. oh and we also clamoured onto the stage to take a group photo. had the joy of warping vera's face (and many others) every time she wanted to play quadrapop. bunked w syab, had fun w her killing ants and trying hard not to eavesdrop on her conv w alvin hee. all in all, pre-u sem was a gd experience :D

sushi on sunday was gd, so was ice cream chef! (i got mixed up between the two and kept on saying ice cream creamery and island chef haha) but don't you think they sound nicer that way? ok anyway, we were actually billed for only one table at ichiban, but gd ol SAMITARIAN (wenru and his impressive chimchim england) us went back to foot the other half, so as to accumulate good karma for A's. so guess i'll be expecting 4As and nothing less! (my foot)

you say that whenever you miss me, you'll look at pictures of us

but do you know, all i have to do is to close my eyes

and the image of you will flood my mind

even when i don't want them to

2008-04-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

really TGIF!
had a break off from sch, which i think everybody felt was desperately needed.
went out w squishy to catch a movie, had lunch w his mummy and just basically slacked the whole day away. wish we were able to spend the entire day tgt more often, but then again, it's the rarity of such days tht makes it all the more sweeter <3

another happy thing was the peedoublelew results! really thank God for the uber good results the class has. all those days perfecting our keilburger recipe, interviewing people and staying bck in sch to add the final touches to our written report, presentations waay into the night really paid off (: thanks to syaaf, charissa, poi and jimtangjimtang! the entire journey was a great one, i think oweing to our cohesiveness and our love for fun as a group! tho of course there were some trying times, when stress kicked in due to having to meet horrible deadlines and when it seemed that we weren't able to ever perfect our work, we did it, thanks to our charlie's angels spirit :D (shall not elaborate). really miss working w the group, won't mind doing it all over again, seriously.

neway, just to sidetrack a bit, the slo camp was real fun. got to learn alot more abt myself, i'm half complaint and half withdrawn (btw, being withdrawn doesn't mean tht you're, well withdrawn, it just means that you care put the morale of everyone above all else. we were split up into two huge groups, and further divided into sub groups. at the beginning, everyone thought the workshop would turn out real boring esp when we saw huge chunks of it on our timetable. but it was great, partly thanks to our wonderful instructor sheena (some cute and crazy butch) and the weirder than weird people in the group. the games that we conducted ourselves were like damn fun! i particularly liked the rope one, and the soccer one. anyway everyone was so sad when the workshop came to an end. but still, i enjoyed every minute of it. can hardly wait for the sandcastle building, get ready your spades and buckets guys! :D

ultimate frisbee was fun, but super tiring! haha, the phobos J2 team made it to become the winner of the losers table :D it was damn fun la, esp when renee used her laser beam vision to score a penalty. can't wait for more on monday :D

2008-03-03T16:50:00.003+08:00

on some days, we feel carefree

on some days, we feel constipated

on some days, we feel invincible

on some days, we feel seductive

& on some days, we feel ronutty

{AND THESE ARE THE DAYS OF OUR (school)LIVES}

2008-02-10T22:23:00.001+08:00

the cny didn't feel like it at all, with so much work to do and all the humdrums, blah blah blah, the usual chagrins of life.

on a brighter side, today was fun! and there will be chingay and v'day next week to look forward to (: yipeedidodaah!

all i desire, a heart after you

2008-02-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

ohmygosh. these few weeks had been mad mad mad for me.
what with the never ending homework, tests, assignments, dateline is the last word i wna hear right now
coupled with cny performance, talks abt some stupid competition, chingay and slo. oh God, pls give me strength. and of all weeks, my guitar chose to break one of its strings ytd. thankfully it gives me reason not to practise over the weekend :D

and everyday i'll walk beside him, for i know he leads the way

2008-01-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

how fast a month seems to go by, and christmas was the best thing of all (:
really thank God that a few of my friends managed to make it down for the services
i especially liked the sermon preached on the last night, it really reminded me of the reasons why christmas is so special
candlelight was the best moment of all

spending time at northlight school helping out with their orientation was also fun. it was a test on my basic trilingual skills. i sometimes had to repeat instructions to a game in english, chinese and basic malay, but i got to make many new kawans there (: not to mention, charissa, shuxian and i got to relive our childhood by doing window art painting :D are these pretty or pretty?

starting school was the best thing that happened this year for me. was bumming around nonsensically at home most of the time doing nth towards the end of the holidays. good to be back in school to catch up with friends (:

sent shara off at the airport on thursday, along with mok and diane. kind of sad to see her go off once again, esp the part after her checking in, seeing the last glimpse of her, and knwing that the next time she'd be back would probably be a yr or two later. but still, i'll keep up to my promise and email frequently, even tho she finds mt fashion sense 'amarish'.

what's a little bit of distance between friends?

mok and i trying to romanticise each other, and she, failing to quite pathetically :D

nice little heartshaped watermelon that got our interest at some korean buffet <3

2007-12-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart

without saying a word you can light up the dark

try as a i may i can never explain

what i hear when you don't say a thing

all day long i can hear ppl talking aloud

but when you hold me near

you drown out the crowd

try as they may they can never define

wht's been said between yr heart and mine

the smile on yr face lets me know tht you need me

there's a truth in yr eyes saying you'll never leave

the touch of yr hands says you'll catch me whenever i fall

you say it best when you say nothing at all

*****

the year has been great, and you guys would always hold a special place in my heart <3

2007-12-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

i vow to do up a loong post on my fantabulous class which i'm missing so terribly much (along w lots and lots of pictures!) when i come bck from kettling tmr!

XOXOX

2007-12-09T17:56:00.000+08:00

spent the week making christmas cards, helping daddy paint around the house and baking stuff with mummy. haha made cereal cookies for the cell. haha i only intended to do abt fifty at first but got carried away :D in the end i had plenty of extras for everyone else. mummy said she'd help me make a beeg christmas pudding for cell next week (: the joy i realise isn't entirely in eating anymore, but rather in making cookies, and seeing yr friends eating them happily!

met diane and shara ytd at town. we chanced upon this craft store at plaza sing. i honestly could have stayed there for an hour! the printed papers there are soo pretty! got a few (: diane left early for church (or rather she was alr ovr an hour late) so i shopped on w shara, we went ovr to art friend &i got this huge packet of wooden hearts (: oh i also got this heart necklace for her too! (: we spent abt 10mins after tht trying to find the restaurant where she was mtg her aunt for dinner. some imperial treasures thing. haha silly girl. was tempted to go into kino but i had to leeave! i'm mtg her again next weekend, hopefully tgt w jernan or mok!

went to casuarina for prata w squishy. got my usual mushroom cheeese :D (oh the joy!) a rather funny incident happened there. a girl down there started waving at me and calling my name, but i didn't rmb her at all. she then just started laughing hysterically w her group of friends. is tht weird or is tht weird?

just read jane dearest's blogg. 21 essays due for literature. oh my, to think i was happily slacking away the holis in oblivion. manicure, i need another one dear! haha i was forced to remove mine just five days after for stoopid guiter.

friday, come quickly! (:

2007-12-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

hooray i'm bck to blogging. but for only one reason. cg's thinking of starting a blog, &i don't wna be the only louser (i still rmb who i coined this term with) on the list who hasn't blogged for months.

just finished a double choc subway cookie tht my neighbour brought bck for me. it was great! and tht would be the word i'd use to describe my day.

okay end of post! :D

2007-08-11T17:21:00.001+08:00

I CAN HARDLY EXPRESS ME JOY!
I'M MTG DIANE TMR FOR REAL! (:

haha ok, had actually bumped into her on the bus few days ago, tgt w her ahem :D
we were exchanging tips on braces colours, seriously la, pink purple and blue combi is the best, she should take it from me! after all i had 4years of experience in wearing braces, which goes to say tht i had the luxury of choosing rubber band colours 4x12 times. i liked the really colourful (had my eyes closed while choosing the colours haha ) rubber band combi too, tho it nearly drove my dentist mad :D

neway, i missed her so much! dianee's one of the bestest friends neone could have, &forever will be one of mine! :D

2007-08-08T14:00:00.000+08:00

one week delay in bday post due to being emo the past few days :D one of the few occasions whereby i have the mood to upload pictures haha.

the class was really really sweet. we celebrated shu hui, shimin and my birthday drg break!

the ceremonial cutting of cake!

abel and wenru just had to spoil the picture by stuffing their heads in.

the cake tasted really really gd tho! thanks to yanlin (:

just a few random pictures (:

trouped down to watch THE SIMPSONS! (haha notice the use of colours, i'm starting to get high) squishy was quite overwhelmed when the whole gang of us harrassed him.

renee tackling the giant doughnut (which is actually her) haha she claims tht she's the star of the movie =/

yanlin must have had a disturbed childhood

anyway simpsons was gd. my fav part was when bart rode naked on his skateboard &of course the spiderpig part :D oh yes, made squishy sit next to abel. made squishy swear they weren't doing any hanky panky hahaha.

neway, went w squishy to simpang for dinner. (aiyah, should have chosen popeyes or minds)

he got me this necklace w this crytal star pendent, cos i was the light of his life =/

okay la, quite sweet la :D

2007-07-18T22:15:00.001+08:00

i feel like a pig.

ate a meal fit for six w charissa to celebrate our success of interviewing worldvision tgt w jim at old market (direct trans for lao pasar :D) had sinful strawberry cheesecake before tht in sch. ok, made up for it for starving at minds cafe, prices were exhorbitant neway lol. OH, haha charissa &i got ourselves same pencil boxes at rafflescity. it's this cute winniethepooh one in a sick sick shade of pink. i like.

and then the next day; went to changi airport to study before service. but i ate more than mugged yet again :D &i was treated to bnj :D neearly went to block 85 after service too. but ate baked rice instead, which was just as bad.

and then the next day; steamboat barbi! jo was damn cute and kept falling off his chair. &we all had a gd laugh when squishy ate a prawn not knwing tht jo had previously chewed on it &decided it wasn't nice. my idea :D I WON SQUISHY AT POOL 3-2 hee next target: world champ title hahaa

and on the next next day; couldn't resist ikea's to-die-for cheesecake, hotdog &caramel icecream. it's seriously the best of all the cheesecakes i've tried (quite alot to rank me fanatic) aloysius was seriously damn cute la. he started counting all the ppl at the restaurant (urgh pardon my spelling, been mixing ard too much w cheena ppl :D) which soon turned more embarrassing than cute.

&i just had 2portions of cheechiongfun for lunch when i knew i should have gotten only one.

thank god for diehard diet partners like yt &thank god for junk diet partners like squishy!

2007-07-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

if everyweek of the yr could be cyberweek, life would be sheer bliss :D
i mean how much better can yr week get if you can see videos of yr most favourite tchr getting his face froze in the most wonderful way all thanks to the buffering? or even better, don't at all, heck cyberweek.

squishy has been kind to me. he acceded to my cravings for simpang. food drowns yr blocktests sorrows almost immediately (: we had roti johns and and chicken wings whilst watching people fall off their bulls on teevee. again, tht was sheer bliss. tht was after retail therapy w my mum at metro salees. wanted to sneak renee and pearlyn in actually, but they chickened out lol.

neway, we made full use of gv-hsbc's one doller movie tickets. haha, caught a damn lot of movies, even one w joel &jeremy. joel was super cute la, there was this wedding scene at fantastic4, and tht wedding song thingy was playing. he actually pretended he was conducting the song &started humming along (loudly) to it. haha it was qutie embarrassing, but cute to watch at the same time.

cg these few weeks have been quite fun. cos of charissa's little sister, desiree. haha she's super cute la, and i've grown fond of watching reruns of dora the explorer w her, playing snakes &ladders and gg whee everytime someone slides down a snake. i think i have a natural affinity w kids, joel &aloysius don't seem to hate me so much now :D

he was trying very hard to kiss me, &at the same time, he seems to be thinking of himself as a loser cos he didn't really succeed. poor kid.

taking literature has it privilledges. we ended earlier than everyone else, which simply meant SHOOPPPING after tests. went to orchard w renee &pearls. went to zara even tho they weren't on sales, cos it looked more inviting than the others. haha tried on this identitical dress in different colours. in the end both pearls &i didn't dare to come out in it, due to it's plunging neckline and it being too short. haha so we hurriedly changed bck to uni &waited for renee to strut out of the fitting room in the dress. lol it was quite priceless. ended up watching, shit haha i forgotten wht show we watched =/ lol neway it was w pearlyn's cj friends. spent quite some time bickering ovr whose uni was nicer haha. we came across this apple shop, went in &took random photos using those weird effects. renee looked funny :D

i'm abt to get bck my results soon. haha not expecting too much. i told my mum she should start expecting calls from some weird ppl soon. till then, better make the most of my last few blissfully careful days (:

2007-06-13T13:07:00.000+08:00

i've planned out my honeymoon destination already. i wna go to the maldives &take a hiatus to one of those super super ulu inhabited islands. and be woken up to watch the sunrise whilst eating chocalate-drizzled pancakes &then go running along the coast line building sandcastles, and then go snorkling! blame it on those travel documentaries tht i watch. i hope no one reads this nemore, i hope tht at least squishy still does :D

school's been gg on pretty well, save from the midyrs. (DOOMED!) must say science people are far less quirky compared to the arts people. but i like my class now, they are quite capable of doing weird stuff (like sticking those cute glittery wang wang stickers onto peoples' bcks &gawking at them walking all ard raffles city looking totally innocent) ooh and renee and i shared the couple seat watching poc the other day, shawn must have been so jealous :D actually come to think abt it, my class is quite gd. haha almost everyone has a leadership position of some sort, &i'm still proud to say tht i was a council election dropout :D (actually i kind of regret dropping out now la boo)

tho not all has been bright. heh i was hospitalised for stupid dengue. wht joy to be able to miss two weeks of school, or so i thought. you should how huge a syringe they use to suck blood out from you, daily. oh and the boredom (: i was so bored i started standing at the window waving at the patients doing physio at the opposite block :D thank God for dear friends who came to visit. glorianne, daniel, elisha, renee, yanlin, liyun, amos, hongjin, rach, dear aloysius. really touched tht my mum's friends &squishy's family (with a lovely basket of flowers &fruits, which smelly poopoo is now using as his bed) also came. my grandpa even came from my to see me and squishy would wheel me down to the gardens every day :D in fact so many people came tht the nurse thought i was actually having a party inside :D okay maybe dengue wasn't so bad, cos it showed me how i had people tht care for me. not to mention tht i was finally able to play with the bed controls all i want.

oh yes, who can the amazing three nights we had when benny hinnes came to the indoor stadium? his services were really wonderful and spiritually uplifting. it's quite touching to see how many nonbelievers came to knw Christ after seeing all those healing miracles happen to their loved ones etc. oh &the last night was the first time i experienced holy laughter. the presence of God was so powerful tht night tht the whole choir just got slained ovr &ovr again. squishy also so cute in his necktie :D

we took joel out swimming ytd. tht kid just can't stop tickling me, &it's fun taunting him cos he believes tht he can outswim us. and he seems to think tht every girl shorter than him is his girlfriend. (okay tht was my idea) &we're gg swimming again tmr!

2007-02-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

haha, yes i finally have the time &mood to blog again. just came bck from suerya's hse, cos we had some class video to do on our winter's tale sg context chicken rice seller vs duck rice seller play. practically everyone there had skipped some stuff to be there, like dance canoeing floorball council mtg. but we ended up snacking &i left with merilyn early. saw the footage of the wedding scene tho, haha aww it looked super real la. kat &shane look super compatible, much to kat's changrin. neway i tried some 20cents chocalate stick from the mama shop near suerya's hse. clarissa made it look so tempting la. haha, it was soo gd, &merilyn was shocked tht i've nvr tried it before. i've led a deprived childhood it seems.

oh yes, i gotten bck my olevel result quite some time bck. was rather disappointing, seems like i'm destined for mj la. haha, liyun was really sweet to accompany me to get my results, &she bought me a really cute special occasion bear to commemorate the sad sad day lol.

neway, the ogl camp was quite fun la. bunked with gwen, jiajun, huiping mok's prc friend (haha tht makes me sound so mean) &a couple more unknown people. i finally knw the difference btn wax &gel, sometimes bungs educate you too haha. we were slave driven to wake up at 615 for pt. which was stewpid, cos tht meant only a couple hours of slp. wht with all the tossing &turning plus late night cardplaying :D wet &wild was fun, but i didn't get to go to andrea &val's peeing pipes station! it was quite depressing to knw tht the water bombs being used against us was actually filled up &made by us, tht's like self mutilation ha.

we mass danced to living la vida loca. haha, it was quite fun &i especially liked the 'welcome to new york city' part! couple dancing with gwen was cool la. while the other couples were so stiff and rigig, we were busy flirting ard with each other &flaunting off our sweet talking linguistic skills haha. btw did i mention tht jiajun's getting more bung day by day? haha, she can so pass off as a guy, &i mistook her as being one when she was walking with mok. the worse part is, she's so manly but she wore peenk socks!

i spent vday frantically personalising candles for people whom i had forgotten to make for the previous night. (too lazy to load pictures) haha poor mok had to drag her 8beeg huge glass bottles to sch, maybe tht's when her canoeing trg sessions came into play haha. i'd skipped canoeing once again to meet squishy's class, who were okay la. i still like my class more :D there after, we went to practise skipping stones. boing boing

squishy &i brought joel out ytd, haha jo's superr naughty la, he kept on tickling me nonstop. but i finally found a geeking partner in him, lol &someone who loves talking abt scenes from spongebob. best of all, joel doesn't mutilate smelly poopoo. haha, ooh he took my heart away! i think a 9year gap isn't too bad right?

yay i'm gg to watch norbit tmr after a 164982decades. it better be gd, or else i'll revert to skipping stones :D

2007-02-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

if there's one word to describe me now, it'll be the word POOPED. i'm tired, exhausted, drained, beyond repair, err pooped! haha the past week or so has been like awfully loong. okay, actually not really la, the weeks are just zipping past. but it's the days itself tht are awfully loong, esp drg econs lectures.

if there's one word to describe canoeing, it'll be the word tyrranical. EIGHTEEN rounds. can you imagine it, eighteen rounds, not seventeen, but eighteen. i'm like building calf muscles. land trg's sadistic laa. but i loove water trg, i mean who doesn't. haha, took the T2 with mok. we went beserk la, &kept bck paddling. haha oh, but we didn't bump into any banks yay! but most of all, we were having karoake sessions while canoeing lol. &i invented a song. as we paddle to the left, as we paddle to the right, as we paddle as we paddle as we paddle all night (literally night wht) with a big mighty splash &i turned around to look, whoops i got her wet! HAHAHA

okay anyway, i officially hate tutorials la. it's so horribly sadistic, nvrending laa. but at the bright side, at least i'm getting smaarter! (i hope) i'm doing my tutorials everywhere, tht's how parasitical it is, on the train bck from canoeing, while waiting for service to start, everywhere laa.

ooh talking abt service, it was goood. pastor ulf ekmen (idk how to spell heh) is like suuperly duperly anointed. his sermons on blessings &missions were gd, everone was pretty much convicted after each one. best of all, i didn't need sweets to sustain myself drg service, tht's how goood he was!

i got into ogl. haha so happeh. & i'm games ic for mmm, which makes it even sweeter. cos i won't be having to run ard sg like some mad duck &will just be positioned at one station throughout! sweeeet (:

ohmygosh, i am so dumb. i've been spending my entiree gd sunday mrng drawing piecharts on paint, when excel does all the work for you. AHH! i feel so dumb. neway, now i have to go &find some way to publicise tuition in some exciting way =/ gimme a break mjc.

tuesday, come quick!

2007-01-21T20:37:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy with everything around me now, i won't trade my life for anything (:

i must say tht i started the new sch yr with a truckload of uncertainties. but by the grace of God, i found myself placed in the nicest class i could possibly imagine myself being in, with really warm &friendly classmates. people lame enough to be obsessed with 'intellectual finger games' &cute enough to go around naming stuffed snakes soloman &pentapuses bobby(five-legged octapus lol) oh &tmr, the tkgians are bringing extras so tht all the girls can be in green. &the guys are gg to swop their pants for gay cat high's shorts. sometimes it's kinda sad when you knw tht, after the 2nd intake, everyone will be flocking away to vjc or wht have you. i really believe tht they will be able to make it. (they make me feel so intellectually inferior)

i mean, i still do miss being a Plite. not tht i'm not one anymore. as the cliche goes: once a Plite, always a Plite. but tht doesn't mean tht you can just step into the school, &expect to find all yr old classmates sitted down in their exact same seats, having lessons. i guess we're entitled to reminiscing abt the past, wishing tht we could relive different stages of our lifes again. &then POOM, we're bck in the stupid econs lecture theatre. i miss all my schmates! esp those whom i've known for like, a decade. i miss being bumping into ppl at the corridors, or anywhere for tht matter, &go hey there!

then, there're those who choose to leave sg &nvr come bck (haha okay they do la) you really feel like ripping up their passports so tht they'll nvr have to leave you. but at the same time, you feel happy tht they've finally found greener pastures &are happily mooo-ing away some place nicer. i do miss shara (ok a bit la, neway just saw her today heh), ryan, tabbie, mark, beloved sam lol, jolene, aileen &the list just keeps growing longer &longer. but it isn't like they're really gone forever. just tht now, more effort is required to y'knw keep the friendship strong, &to ensure the annoying stuff tht you do will be forever embedded in their memories.

lol &there's the cellgroup. i daren't say i've been through alot togetherr with them la. but i do see myself gg through more with them in the future (: i guess it's true tht we're really a diverse group of ppl &the one thing tht really holds us together is the love tht we have for Christ (: oh &our liking for food haha. minced pork noodles ytd was gd! topped up with stingray, chicken wings &carrot cake. tadaa, you experience heaven on earth haha. (i proudly scrapped of the plate of carrot cake :D

of course i do miss my prev churchmates alot too. i can recall all those bubble teas we've had together :D, late nights preparing for caroling &stuff. i guess i was quite lucky in a sense tht, i managed to make strong bonds not only with those of my age &really feel at home there. sometimes it's funny to think how i even thought abt leaving. the cute thing is tht i'm always bumping into them on the streets, people like felicia, ana, nicholas, ian, blah blah. &the cliche question asked is always, oh so how're you doing at yr new church. lol, i'm bumping into abraham every mrng on the way to sch. in fact, i just saw like ber &laine today haha.

&then, there's the, ahem, ever squishy Squishy.

i guess it all boils down to being able to strengthen yr old bonds, whilst fostering new! neway, life does has a funny way of compensating yr losses with even bigger rewards (:

2007-01-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

i'm so in love with captain underpants.
yepp tht's right. haha my love for him ignited in mj's library. haha, i couldn't imagine how charmaine was able to find the entire volume of cpt underpants on some secluded shelf. (maybe she'd secretly been gg there to read) haha neway, sarah charmaine mer &i booked an entire discussion room to read cpt underpants. okay la, actually we meant it for the og to play pictionary in there, but their butts were apparently glued to the canteen's bench. quite mean of us to shoo away 2mugging j2s to read cpt underpants :D vol three's the best as it has this name-changing section, which got me preoccupied well into chem lecture. snotty toadbutt haha.

talking abt mugging, i think mjc's name should aptly be changed to mugger jc. it's like on every flat surface, you're bound to find people who shamelessly sprawl their lecture notes, with their heads bent down, writing profusely. &no, they aren't doing last minute homework copying. (okay la, i think my og's guilty of it too) the library's packed drg breaks with people studying, even the atrium &the canteen. tht's like asdfghjkl ohmygosh. haha, i think the mmm's on not only drg orientation, but everyday - magnificent mugging marathon tht is :D c'mon i'm not exaggerating, we had homework on the first day of lectures. boo. &now i've got literature, chem maths &reading of econs. wht joy!

haha, neway i've no idea whtsoever wht i've gotten myself into. i've put canoeing as my first choice. they were saying smth along the lines of taking in any girl who survived through the trials? four km endurance runs, i'm doooomed. (to show how unfit i am, my neck's still aching from monday's trials) mok had better have put canoeing as her first choice too.

delirious? ytd was gd! i like the screenwork they did. it was really creative &something new, albeit being rather distracting la. too bad merilyn couldn't come! haha prata ytd at casuarina curryhse was good. i loved the cheese prata la, it was just really cheesy &crispy, shiok!

squishy got me another doggie. haha so sweet. i named him smelly poopoo (don't ask why) &now squishy's jealous tht smelly poopoo receives more hugs HAHA (:

2007-01-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

finally have an early day, &time to blog:D

haha i think meridianjc's nice. i've nice orientation group mates! really nice ones, tho it's dominated by tkgs people haha. &nice orientation leaders. i think peijun &jieshi are really sweet. okay maybe paul isn't so nice cos he didn't recognize me without glasses at canoeing. at the beginning we were really united as one, as for now we're still mostly united as one! orientation was quite gd, i think. i like the wet &wild segment, altho some of the games went a bit too far la. like the one where we had to reduce bars of soap into lather with our bodies. the meridian's magnificent marathon was gd too, i think it was the portion where i lost my flabs at. (tho i gained bck the weight due to incessive fastfood stops)

the one thing i can't stand is the tchrs at mjc. (heck, let them read :D) the literature lecturer's really nice. well, all literature tchrs are i think, with the exception of koh eelin. as for the rest of the lecturers, their lame attempts at cracking cold jokes is cynical. it's like they go through lectures with this straight face, then suddenly burst out in peels of laughter, apparently because they think something they said is funneh. &everyone would go, oh tht was meant to be a joke?

the library is dropdead gorgeous. haha, i think it's really really nice. if pl's library is an attap house, mjc's library is heaven. i think meridian's sound system is gd, it seems as tho only pl experience 'technical difficulties' every so often. maybe they should be recommended the dolby all surround system :D since i'm so proud of mjc's sound system, i should consider joining ava

-not. haha went for canoeing trials ytd with mok. quite exhuasting, but i survived! the canoeing people were really friendly, esp priscilla. neway i was told tht trials is just a formality for girls as well they take in almost any who are crazy enough to want to join in, they are desperate for girls! (haha, the j2 batch only has three) everyone in my orientation group seems to be either wanting to join band, floorball or dance. i don't mind canoeing, volleyball or guitar! but i think i'd most probably go for canoeing, the camaraderie present amongst the j2s is really there.

i have only 16hours left to complete my impossibly difficult inpartial fractions assignment urgh! homework on the first lecture, mjc's really living up to it's killer reputation. it's quite funny to observe how drg breaks, instead of heading towards the canteen, many actually prefer heading to the bench tables or library to bury themselves amongst worksheets. i was made for consistent slacking, not consistent hardwork laa.

2007-01-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

came bck from grandma's place a day or two ago. haha she seemed really gd over the weekend (: ooh, but i have to talk abt my two cousins! they were so extremely cute. harrison's three &aloysius dearie's four.

they got bored, &decided to have some nursery rhyme karoake. so wht they did was they each took out their huuge collection of dvds &were actually squabbling ovr which one to singalong to. they finally settled on some sesame street one, after a lengthy debacle. so there i was saying, now jiejie will help you play it okay? but they completely ignored me &operated the whoole dvd system themselves. from the switches, to the tv &the dvd player. they knew how to do it systematically, without hesitating or anything. i was down there, laughing &laughing, after being shocked &gg whoa so clever! i mean, err they are only three &four but they knw how to work dvds. err when i was four, i think i was toilet trained?

heard from abi tht tmr, the whole school has to walk bck from our holding premises to the new sucky one. i think it'd be the stupidest thing to do. i mean rgs &scgs did it only because the distance in btn was quite manageable. but 2.8km will be pure torture. haha well, at least abi promised to get me the shirt, which i will wear with pride :D

neway, tmr's the start of school, officially - we cleared all the boring welcome speeches, sbj briefings, sbj selection process last week. so hopefully i'll be given econs literature chem &maths! quite pleased tht such a combination exists cos tht would mean tht i'd be split btn the arts &the sciences. just hope tht i'll be able to meet nice people in the class cos i don't wanna be the only loner i knw gg to arts.

so wish me luck, cos i'm gg to be needing it!
i've enough of this hide &seek business, we nd to stop living a lie &come clean squishy.

indulgence!

2006-12-30T10:14:00.000+08:00

i am soo so proud of myself :D

woke up early for once to watch all my spongebob reruns! now, all i have is a great sense of achievement, a wonked up sense of humour &an empty ben &jerry's. haha yea was eating a leftover tub of it whilst watching tom &jerry (no kidding). i could really relate to one episode of spongebob. the one where he watched some stupid horror movie &got spooked out for eons. heck, i shuddered drg deathnote (watched tht with aileen, jane &jols. alphabeticalised :D aileen changed so much ahh) sometimes, i feel tht watching spongebob is like seeing some of my goofy antics reanacted. &the sense of swelled up pride reimmerges. been there, done tht! (:

another reason to be proud of myself for is because i accomplished the daunting task of cleaning out the study room. abt a 5yrs of unwanted crap have been rotting there. haha it's like on practically flat surface, i have notes of every sbj la. i proclaim tht my new yr's resolution would be to be more organised, so not HAHA. but seriously, seeing all the papers clogging up 6ntuc plastic bags really made me feel great (near to the feeling i get when watching spongebob). but as of yet, my study room's still in a plonked up mess. yaay.

neway, thanksgiving cell ytd was fun la. mister disfigured, drooled upon barney fitted right in. he was gg ard being hugged by practically everyone, got abit jealous, cos he's miinee. but then, come to think abt it, i've had him all for myself for 16yrs, &probably another 60, so they should be the jealous ones instead muaha. i hugged barney all the way home, was attracting all the little kids la. felt quite stupid laa, i thought he would blend in with my purple shirt haha, but apparently not.

okay nuff abt barney. thanksgiving cell ytd was quite great, one of the best cells i've had in a while. haha, err wait, not just because of the food =/ yepp, there were awards given out. liyun &i were actually wanting to sabo the most loving nominees by making them sing the barney song (which explains why mister disfigured, drooled upon barney was guest of honour) but to our utmost dismay we ourselves were the nominees. duhh. in the end, i had the ~~king~~queeen of all nations award, which meant i'm err most evangelistical? i highly doubted so, but oh well, i'll try to live up to the title!

neway i'm off to malaysia for the weekend. my cousin was crying ovr the phone ytd, saying he missed me. aww, yes i'm missed, i knw tht. but the world must learn to share me :D
&when you held me tight, everything felt so right
unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

2006-12-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

yes! the net is finally working (: i hate rainy days, they are soo gloomy! they're only gd for staying home the whoole entire day to watch dvds hahaha.

neway my christmas went by really well. went to sentosa with mok's cell. thank God the rain held up! (: shara turned up with her awfully strong aussie accent, kinda reminded me of tabbie. haha &she spent almost the whole time arguing with some guy called don ovr penguins &polar bears in antartica. i think mok's cell are really really nice lor, tho haha can't say they're really pro in vball (well, come to think abt it neither am i) not to mention, there's a really sweet girl called rachel who's laughter's awfully cute la.

after sentosa we were in a really beeg mad rush to get to expo on time for svc. glad diane shara &mok really enjoyed it. and i managed to drag jernan there too. it's like the ambience at candlelight is really amazing, when you're at the terrace &get a view of the whole entire hall litted up with candles (:

neway went to squishy's place to dye bck our hair. haha quite amusing, cos i think we're really noobs at it. quite frustrating to have to dye bck so early, ¬ being able to keep it ovr the new yr. i really have no idea why mjc has it's orientation one wk in advance. managed to find abt 4 plites there. eunice, jiajun &jessica. stupid mok's in taiwan. kind of saddening tht there're only ard 4 of us, when there are tens of tkgs ppl (no idea why too) have chosen to offer econs, literature, maths &chem. yes weird combi i knw, hahaha. i still haven't found neone gg to arts! guess i'll just get used to being a loner on the first day whee (:

neway, now i've got to decide whether i should go bck to visit grandma tmr, i do miss her, but then again cant bear to go thru all the emotional trauma again. dont want to regret not gg tho. ah! isabelle you gotta stand on yr own two puny feet &not regret yr decision, for better or for worse.

2006-12-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

went to mjc today. &i got the best surprise in my life! i'm gg to be in the same orientation group as qinglin! yayness. haha we're grped according to our bdays. &since she's just 7days older, we'll be together forever! :D we were estatic when we found out, &started hugging each other. &then the truth hit us; we're gonna be stuck with each other for 3whole days =/ hahah CFIVE's gonna be nice cos i've got qinglin there now (: idk which one sammie will go to tho :( we will be mtg on the 27th so tht we won't be loners heh.

the only thing tht sucks was tht i'm the only arts student in the grp, so odd one out. it's easily 15science people to 1arts person. (trust me, i'm not exaggerating) i counted the number of arts people at the notice board, &they'll barely fill 3 classes. neway i'll relate my funny experience i had with mjc.

on the way home from school last yr, my bus would almost inenvitably have to pass by mjc. &so when it had it's orientation last yr, i'd start kaypoh-ing to see wht kind of sec schs actually made it there. i actually saw many cedar &nygh people, those more recognised schs la. &i started to feel sad for them, like aww they didn't make it to some place better &got stuck in mjc. it was only when i went bck to check out tht yr's jae's posting &realised, wow so they actually did well. &when we had target setting, i rmb striking out mjc &putting at the side CMI - cannot make it, along with all the other top ones.

aand look where i am now (: qinglin promised to try for canoeing with me. neway went to toys r us just now, &got some lovely flowers at bargain prices. (shh, won't tell who they're for :D) haha, qinglin got some stupid monkey which had super big nostrils.

it's pouring &pouring &pouring nonstop. daddy was mad at me for talking nonstop on the phone ytd night. haha can't help it laa, shara came bck &brought along her new accent. she used to speak so much singlish, &when i forced her to use lahs and lors, they sounded so out of place! was laughing with mok, diane &kitty ovr it. too bad jernan's too busy to hear it. neway shara's gg to have her schedule filled pretty soon (: we're taking her to sentosa, &then to my church whee, &she said yes to my suggestion of having a buffet!

i'm thinking of making a trip down to ikea, to get some soft toy frog :D hahaa it's so cute laa, it has this golden crown on it's head, &i think it says 'ribbit' if you squeeze it's tummy. (maybe if i were to give it a kiss, it might turn into prince charming!)
can't wait to see squishy's gay uniform hahaa :D

2006-12-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

i'm baack, from a whole week of fun (:

had fun scouting through whitesands, ikea &the airport with liyun, daniel &hj. haha after saturday, osim will sell off yet another 20 units of leg massage machines. maybe i should add tht to my list of things to santa.

eragon is nice, can't wait for it's sure-to-come sequel. haha, so glad we managed to convince grace tht turning pages would be the ultimate turnoff. i absolutely love the plot (it's abt this cuute guy who finds tht he's fated to be sophia's rider, &save the whole universe!), but i say fire the director for the next one laa, so much for the anti-climaxes. took neos to humour them. :D

went with mummy to vivo. the place is beeg la (you really can't compare sg shoppingmalls with midvalley &oneutama tho) we had secret recipe for lunch, some chicken cordon bleu, lamb stew, &their tiramisu cheeeesecake. took pictures of those delicacies, but as usual, they will remain stuck in the phone (:

got tired of shopping after ard 4hours? (yepp, mummy can shop!) i went for the some impromptu job interview at secret recipe, push factor being the potential cute co-worker, &the generous pay &perks (free meal leh) :D squishy says i'm mean to waste the interviewer's time, cos i went tho already knwing tht i can't afford to get tied down to a job. was offered, but i didn't take it up, too much heart to breach the nice lady's contract halfway (:

neway, went bck to vivo again ytd. i watched deja vu, &you should watch it too! it's some epic sci-fi thriller, tht lacks originality, but makes up with the captivating factor. we were munching on sneaked-in chacos, &snapple. actually we almost couldn't, because someone couldn't open anything at all (wht would you do without me) despite insisting the presence of ripping muscles. left my faithful bright yellow bottle behind in the cine. it was heartwrenchingly saddening. i mean, after all we've been through. i seem to have a knack for losing stuff.

went to the pet safari. the dogs &the hamsters were soo cute. (too bad you couldn't see them diane!) the first criteria my boyfriend has to fullfil is tht he has to be a dog loover, if not byebye :D i was told an uber sweeet thing just now, aww. i looved the boardwalks along the sea, &the pretty bright-coloured flower tree! (hey tht rhymes hahaha) &picturesque view!

i've gotten into mjc, have a few gd friends gg there &a few who are already there, so i'm reeally happy. maybe mok's strategy of not planting yr eggs all in on basket would work! but one thing i'm absolutely not happy abt is how the principal bears a striking resemblance to mrs lee. AHH!

ryaaan's bck today. &shaara baay min on sunday! &rachel msged. haha quite thankful tht she did, cos y'knw how horrendous tyhpoons can get. gg to bedok to pig out on fish head curray ltr, yumm.